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I find most things in life both scary and thrilling. I suppose I should hope it's always this way, but sometimes it feels like an awful lot of work.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Catastrophe!!!!

After changing from guilt-induced and reluctant journalling to near fanaticism I have now lost my journal. I took a bus from Ouagadougou, Burkina Faso to Kumasi, Ghana. We arrived in the middle of the night. I got off, but my journal stayed tucked neatly in the crevace between the seats. The bus continued to Accra. I've tried calling. Somebody at some point actually laughed at me.

I've been writing a lot lately. Some of this has made it onto this blog. Some has made its way to some of you in the form of email letters. But much of it stayed right there, hidden like wide eyed and fearful smiles, in the pages of that leatherbound journal.

And now who knows where it is. I try to imagine what the reader is thinking right now... for who could resist a peak really? Not I. It could be they think I'm crazy, vain, stupid, confused. They would be right.

At any rate, it is a major loss to me. And irreplaceable. But I let it go. I cast it out on the waters and it becomes soggy and sinks to the bottom with the old car tires and beer cans and the mud coloured fish with their buggy eyes. Surprised.

11 Comments:

At 8:06 AM, Blogger Menina Cheveux Bouclés said...

Hi Martin. Just came by to see where and how you were. I am very sad with these news. I know that this is the kind of loss you can never recover from. It's like losing all your photos, all your songs in a computer... But keep in mind that in any case your memory will be in charge of keeping the best and most important moments and feelings during this experience. And all in all, this is what counts most. Be brave, start writing again. I am sure that the person who found it will be delighted with so many nice thoughts and lively stories. Good luck! Flavia, from Bissau.

 
At 3:33 AM, Blogger Martin Penner said...

Thank you Flavia. The loss has been a surprisingly difficult blow to recover from; your message is very encouraging and perhaps just what I need. I started writing again yesterday.
Hope all is well in Bissau, that nutty little capital. It's been fun to hear the reputation it has garnered with other West Africans and to remember my wonderful time there.

 
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